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Mixed feelings today hai.. today's been so boring. in school, that is. wells i took a whopping 1 and a half hours to reach school, all because of a damned traffic jam. that's so irritating, isnt it? wells. and when i went to sch. the 3 damned guys in my loc vid class called me fat, and happily said my legs were pigs trotters. i know they were joking. but i still think they should be more sensitive. like wth. i mean i know i'm fat but you dont have to keep rubbing it in right! wells, was complaining to *him that my class guys were so insensitive and that sometimes i hated them. their insensitivity was worse than his and blah blah. so his reply was 'huh.. worse than me?..i so bad meh... ha sorry lah..keke..dont sad k?..' hahas i totally melted sia! lols oh so like after that i got a freaking C+ for my speech comm assessment. i'm so demoralised ok. i like spent the whole week doing it, and i cant believe i got a miserly C+! but ya. it had something to do with my non-vocal delivery. shucks i really have to work on that. wells. after school, went out with ronald, andy, lianne and dow. that damned dowell. the purpose of us going to town was cos i wanted to buy a bag! and he dragged us all to look for his stuff, and viola! i DIDNT get to buy my bag. as ron said, 'no matter what you wanna do, when dow comes along, he thinks of something he needs, you can forget about yours cos HIS need is ALWAYS more impt to him.' i think i'm not going out with dow again if i need to buy something. lianne and ron were kind enough to go with me and leave dow and andy at their shop. at least ron was running everywhere helping me look for a nice bag. thanx ron!! haas hai. until now i still wish he'd ask me to go ndp with him. i wish he'd read this, understand how i feel and tell me how he feels. even if he doesnt like me, at least let me know and stop bringing me round and round. it just makes no sense for him to do that. but then again, it's better if i tell him myself that i do like him. and hear what he has to say. i'm not asking for anything more than how he feels. like even if he really likes me, i dont even expect for a relationship to come up, why? i dont think i'm ready for one. sigh. i just want him to know.. but not from others, but myself. i was thinking, i've been making it damn obvious to him. wonder if he's caught my hints. wells, just wait and see, then. |
